"Oh."

It's not like Jesper hasn't talked about Wylan. Mat knows the name, knew there was a history of sorts there. But he's never given it much thought. Why would he? What did it matter here?

Only now...

He doesn't doubt Jesper's words, the assurances that it hardly changes any feelings between them. But it makes him feel a way he can't quite pin down. Some petty, needy little part of him had reveled in the idea that he was special. That Jesper had a whole multitude of lovers but Mat was his love and there was no other. And it had felt good and comforting that were both stumbling through this new thing together, discovering it together.

Stupid, perhaps, but that was the way of the heart. It's a very stupid organ.

"I mean I'm glad for you and all, but I can't say it doesn't make me feel a bit funny. Like I'm stepping on some other fellow's toes, you know?"

Particularly after all that had transpired between himself and Jesper recently.

"I don't mean to say I am, just that's how it sort of feels. I'll get over it."