"We were both in a really fucked up place and we shouldn't have had that conversation right away."

With Mat having just been out of a horrific situation and still healing, and Jesper having gone off a several week killing spree, neither of them were anywhere in their right minds. They didn't have to make a decision in that moment, or even talk about it right away. It was days before Mat had to go anywhere. At the time, Jesper had been so determined to have something good, he couldn't wait.

"You know how people can get memories shoved into their head all of a sudden?" It's happened to a few people around here and he heard it was intense but. "It happened to me. I got an entire year." An entire year just like the year he has spent here. It wasn't a bad year, but it was a lot of information to an already on edge and scrambled mind.

"I just wanted to be happy." His voice breaks a little and he breathes in, lets it out. "And you make me the most happy ...."