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a_better_man) wrote2022-02-08 10:17 am
a_better_man) wrote2022-02-08 10:17 am
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Abraxas Inbox
random Horizon threads
and whatnot.
random Horizon threads
and whatnot.
To know that you can do nothing for them is hard. Just as hard to know that you would be able to help them if things were only a little bit different.
Sansa will do well enough, but she is wary of people — anyone. I think she will keep her eyes on almost anyone with a crown, for certain. The people in charge of the other places too, if she can. Not like a spy, but — well, she has scolded me from time to time. She thinks me too trusting. I think I have little choice — it is better to have friends.
Sansa will do well enough, but she is wary of people — anyone. I think she will keep her eyes on almost anyone with a crown, for certain. The people in charge of the other places too, if she can. Not like a spy, but — well, she has scolded me from time to time. She thinks me too trusting. I think I have little choice — it is better to have friends.
[With a note and haphazard packaging, dropped off to Mat.
As promised.
Includes instructions and the Ancient Thornean word for protect as its activation word.
((personal lightning shield:
1/day surrounds the user in a burst of electric energy, duration 30 seconds, must be affixed to an object; to activate, speak the incant for protect. Electric shock feedback pulses out in a 5ft-radius and stuns for 5 seconds. Shield can move with user. Affixed to a wooden carved brooch.))]
As promised.
Includes instructions and the Ancient Thornean word for protect as its activation word.
((personal lightning shield:
1/day surrounds the user in a burst of electric energy, duration 30 seconds, must be affixed to an object; to activate, speak the incant for protect. Electric shock feedback pulses out in a 5ft-radius and stuns for 5 seconds. Shield can move with user. Affixed to a wooden carved brooch.))]
Edited 2024-02-16 00:41 (UTC)
Unsure, I don't tend to plan where I'm playing any given night much in advance. Sometime in the next week.
Were you hoping to catch the show?
Were you hoping to catch the show?
Well in that case, I suppose I could be playing there in two nights? or whatever night is best for you, really.
Then night after next it is.
Any special requests?
Any special requests?
I can slip in a few more romantic story ballads. Those are less twee than love songs.
And some of Master Jaskier's love songs, much less twee than local love songs.
And some of Master Jaskier's love songs, much less twee than local love songs.
Plant guy? Oh he has a flower shop, that's right.
But he's a master bard and I'm his apprentice. Half the songs I play are his.
But he's a master bard and I'm his apprentice. Half the songs I play are his.
[ Kaz had spent a long time thinking about how to approach things with Mat. It's a weird sensation, remembering knowing him so well and knowing him hardly at all.
And about it all, Kaz had to swallow his pride. That was hard as well. ]
I believe I owe you an apology. No. I do owe you an apology.
I'm sorry my behavior before. Sometimes my need to protect my people gets the better of me. Which isn't an excuse but an explanation that it was because of caring for Jesper that I was so angry.
And about it all, Kaz had to swallow his pride. That was hard as well. ]
I believe I owe you an apology. No. I do owe you an apology.
I'm sorry my behavior before. Sometimes my need to protect my people gets the better of me. Which isn't an excuse but an explanation that it was because of caring for Jesper that I was so angry.
[Mat isn't exactly surprised at the message. It's been on his mind, too, that aspect of his possible life. And like Kaz, he hasn't been certain how to approach it. Lucky him that he doesn't have to worry about that anymore.
The contents of the message, though... ]
don't worry about it. love makes a man do funny things.
we both know that well.
odd, innit? that we know each other so well but in reality we've had all of one conversation.
The contents of the message, though... ]
don't worry about it. love makes a man do funny things.
we both know that well.
odd, innit? that we know each other so well but in reality we've had all of one conversation.
I should have done this before... all of that but I hope doing so now means we can move forward.
So odd. There's these feelings and thoughts, and they're so against what I'm so used to that I'm not sure how to handle it.
This is my start though because, well, you're the most important part of all of this. Even if we never end up in the same circumstances, we share something so important to us both.
So odd. There's these feelings and thoughts, and they're so against what I'm so used to that I'm not sure how to handle it.
This is my start though because, well, you're the most important part of all of this. Even if we never end up in the same circumstances, we share something so important to us both.
it's fine. i was done being pissed at you before anyhow.
i'm not sure either. i know it wasn't real, but it WAS real. it was real to us.
hard to not get along when we share a husband. way i see it is we got along just fine. so clearly we CAN get along just fine.
how about we just handle it the old fashioned way, and get to know each other as we are now.
i'm not sure either. i know it wasn't real, but it WAS real. it was real to us.
hard to not get along when we share a husband. way i see it is we got along just fine. so clearly we CAN get along just fine.
how about we just handle it the old fashioned way, and get to know each other as we are now.
It does feel real though. More real than some memories I can think of.
I agree. On all counts but most of all that obviously it works for us, so we can just make that work.
Novel approach, going for the classics and all, but it sounds right. I think it's a good idea for all of us.
Though I do miss the thrones. Glad I can fly still but the thrones here would be nice.
[ It's a joke. Maybe a bad one but he's trying to be social in the ways he knows. ]
I agree. On all counts but most of all that obviously it works for us, so we can just make that work.
Novel approach, going for the classics and all, but it sounds right. I think it's a good idea for all of us.
Though I do miss the thrones. Glad I can fly still but the thrones here would be nice.
[ It's a joke. Maybe a bad one but he's trying to be social in the ways he knows. ]
that it does. feels more real to me than the ACTUAL other lives i've really lived and remember bits of. and all the feelings...they didn't just go away on waking up.
the thrones WERE very nice. and the whole being worshipped bit in general. can't say as i minded that! and folks back home said i'd never make anything of myself.
how about you come by my domain? we can talk proper, and you can meet my critters.
the thrones WERE very nice. and the whole being worshipped bit in general. can't say as i minded that! and folks back home said i'd never make anything of myself.
how about you come by my domain? we can talk proper, and you can meet my critters.
No, they didn't. Not in the least. So I want us to talk more, which I'm not always good at. I mean, since we got past the hard part easy.
[ Except this is hard in different ways but he still wants to get to know him. ]
It's also weird thinking about how much I'll miss the festival. Screw folks back home then. What do they know.
I was feared back home. Not quite the same. Miss it sometimes.
We can make that work. Definitely. Yes, because I'm no better with animals than I am people but sure.
[ Except this is hard in different ways but he still wants to get to know him. ]
It's also weird thinking about how much I'll miss the festival. Screw folks back home then. What do they know.
I was feared back home. Not quite the same. Miss it sometimes.
We can make that work. Definitely. Yes, because I'm no better with animals than I am people but sure.
lucky for you, i talk well enough for the both of us! i can hold entire conversations entirely by myself!
it WAS a fun festival. and don't be too harsh on them, i didn't give them much reason to think i'd amount to much.
i've been feared. didn't like it much. i think i just want people to like me too much!
don't worry, they're horizon critters. gizmo likes everyone.
it WAS a fun festival. and don't be too harsh on them, i didn't give them much reason to think i'd amount to much.
i've been feared. didn't like it much. i think i just want people to like me too much!
don't worry, they're horizon critters. gizmo likes everyone.
Maybe it's a skill I should learn. With other people not by myself.
I too easily stay by myself as it is.
I was much the opposite. Still am, I suppose. If I didn't get close to people, they couldn't screw me over and I could just destroy them all as needed.
[ Wow, it's honesty and openness. Maybe he is learning. ]
I dislike everyone. We'll get along wonderfully.
[ And a joke even! ]
I too easily stay by myself as it is.
I was much the opposite. Still am, I suppose. If I didn't get close to people, they couldn't screw me over and I could just destroy them all as needed.
[ Wow, it's honesty and openness. Maybe he is learning. ]
I dislike everyone. We'll get along wonderfully.
[ And a joke even! ]
I can tell you this much - it never hurts to be able to talk yourself out of a sticky spot. Saved my arse on more than one occassion.
You know, I do understand that. I spent a while keeping folks from getting close, for that same reason. I was shitty to even the people that liked me. But then I realized I'm going to get fucked over one way or another, may as well have friends.
That's the spirit!
[Mat can tell that Kaz is making a real effort.]
You know, I do understand that. I spent a while keeping folks from getting close, for that same reason. I was shitty to even the people that liked me. But then I realized I'm going to get fucked over one way or another, may as well have friends.
That's the spirit!
[Mat can tell that Kaz is making a real effort.]
Oh well that's another story. That's about playing things just right. The persona is not the same thing as the man.
[ Put him in a "role" and he can say nearly everything. As himself the mask falls into place and he doesn't see much reason for it. He has definitely been better here, but not good about it. ]
Very much the same then. I would say you could ask Jesper, but he will undoubtedly deny it and point out himself and Inej in my life. As if I didn't push them at every turn.
In fairness, they did prove me wrong and stayed despite it all.
[ Put him in a "role" and he can say nearly everything. As himself the mask falls into place and he doesn't see much reason for it. He has definitely been better here, but not good about it. ]
Very much the same then. I would say you could ask Jesper, but he will undoubtedly deny it and point out himself and Inej in my life. As if I didn't push them at every turn.
In fairness, they did prove me wrong and stayed despite it all.
Ah but that's not quite the same as being able to do it as your average self!
Some folks will always be stubborn and chip at the walls. I had a pair of friends back home, we grew up together. Stubborn bastards, the both of them.
Some folks will always be stubborn and chip at the walls. I had a pair of friends back home, we grew up together. Stubborn bastards, the both of them.
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